Ever since I hit post on my last post Hello World! I have been feeling extremely discouraged and second guessing starting this blog. I am not sure why, but I started feeling like I wasn’t going to be good enough to write this blog, or that I didn’t know how to write to inspire people, or that anything I were to write was not going to be good enough or inspire anyone. This my friends, was Satan trying to get into my head.
Today I left Katee with my mom so that I could get some homework done. After I was done working on some of my homework I went and grabbed lunch and sat in my car at the park eating my lunch and listening to an audio program called Mormon Channel Daily, that has inspiring daily messages. Anyways, today I listened to one that gave some recap messages from our recent Women’s Conference. This specific message that stood out to me was from Elder Dieter F. Uchtdorf’s talk titled Fourth Floor, Last Door.
One of the things that really stood out to me, and what is encouraging me to keep going with this blog was this:
Now, some of you might not feel worthy of such high praise. You might think you are too insignificant to have a meaningful influence on others. Perhaps you don’t even consider yourself a “woman of faith” because you sometimes struggle with doubt or fear.
Um… HELLO!! This is exactly what was going on in my head. How did he know that these thoughts were what constantly fill my head every day?! He continued his talk with describing faith is when he said “woman of faith”:
Faith is a strong conviction about something we believe—a conviction so strong that it moves us to do things that we otherwise might not do. “Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.”
This right here, this statement has resonated with me so much right now. I have to have faith that writing this blog will reach someone and will inspire someone. I have to have faith that I know how to write that others will be able to understand. I have to put my heart and my soul into sharing this gospel no matter how scary and discouraging it can be at times.
I will continue in faith, I will press forward even at times when I am really discouraged. I know this blog will help me just as much as helping others.
Do you have thoughts of discouragement or not feeling good enough? How do you overcome those thoughts? Do you have any questions about the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints?