I am not the Mormon I thought I was….

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My realization.

I grew up in Utah, as a Mormon, and lived there all of my life, except for my recent move to Florida. That was the hardest decision of my life. To leave Utah and the life that I knew there. To take my daughter away from Grandma, Grandpa, Uncles, Aunts, and Cousins.  But I felt strongly that we needed to be here in Florida.  The real reason we moved to Florida was for my Mother-in-Law’s health. Now I know, I needed to be here to learn and grow.

Now let’s get back to the realization.

Growing up in Utah, everyone around us was LDS, either active member, or inactive members that had fallen away.  EVERYONE knew about the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints.  I knew the basic principles of the church and believed that it was true, but I didn’t truly know the church was true.  My understanding of the gospel principles were basic and so was my belief.  Back then I was lazy didn’t care to dive deeper and learn more.

After moving here to Florida, we went to an Adult Session of Stake Conference, where they had different people bear their testimonies. I sat there in awe and amazement at the depth of their testimonies.  I was amazed at the strength and power that they had in speaking about the truth of the Church, the gospel, and Jesus Christ.  Guilt swept over me. I sat there weeping, feeling like a failure.  Feeling lost. Feeling numb.

Then several comments were made that brought me out of my funk; “there is no growth in the comfort zone.” “Do not shrink and hide from the fight.” “Patience is needed to get out of hard times.” “Patience helps us find our character and helps us to learn what Heavenly Father wants us to learn while being here on earth.”  How true are these statement?! After all those previous emotions of feeling numb and lost, I felt hope again!  I felt like there was a lot for me to learn, but that I can learn it.  I could develop a stronger testimony and relationship with Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ!

My solution.

I will not shrink and hide from developing a testimony so strongly as the ones I have heard and felt!  My hope is to learn and study all I can about the gospel, Jesus Christ, and my earthly mission here on earth.  I will spread and share this message of hope, love, and faith.  I am so grateful to have felt the impression so strongly that I needed to come here to Florida. As hard as it was (and is) to leave my family behind, I know this is where I needed to go.

It is my hope that here on this blog, I can share the things that I am learning. That I might help you to know of our teachings. Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ love us so much!  I want you to understand that.  If you have questions about our Church or our gospel teachings, send me a message or leave a comment and I would be happy to do some studying.  Because the questions that you might have, I might have those same questions.

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  1. Kristin, I go on Facebook about once a year and today I’m so glad I did! I love that you are sharing what you have learned! I too have lived out of Utah and know what it is like to hear the testimonies of those living “out in the field”. Yes! They are powerful! You have a great opportunity to live your religion and gain another perspective on the gospel. Living in Utah it does become easy to take the gospel for granted. I’m glad you have been able to rekindle the fire! Another witness that God knows what we need much more than we do. He shows up everywhere and in every thing!

    1. Thank you so much Marie! I am so glad that you were able to see this post from Facebook! It definitely have been interesting gaining another perspective on the gospel and I am so grateful for this opportunity to do such. It is amazing to know that God knows us so much more than we realize. It is hard to understand that at times but I live it and see if every day and its wonderful! Thank you for your sweet words! We miss you guys! Love you!

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